Friday, October 29, 2010

Ghosts

I have a ghost in my life.
My best friend some twenty years ago took his own life. For many years I blamed myself for not being there to help him in his hour of need, but after a long, long time, I came to peace with the situation.
I was haunted by the memory of this friend for many years, but slowly learned to cherish our friendship and be grateful for the time we had.

Just as I was finding equilibrium after my father's recent death, I heard yesterday that a friend of mine had taken that route again. This one is not a very close friend, but we have known each other for a couple of years and have spent a lot of time together.
He was troubled, I know, and life was not easy......but his sudden death has shocked and stunned our little circle of friends.

It's a new month on Monday - here's hoping that life takes an upturn as all this October sad news is starting to get to me.....

cq

3 comments:

Thumper said...

Oh wow..I am so sorry. I can't even imagine the kind of pain a person is going through to see that as a viable option.

Here's to hoping next month will be a good one for you, you certainly deserve it.

Nikki-ann said...

Oh no... I'm so sorry. Here's hoping November is a better month.

Walker said...

I am sorry for your loss.
Each person that we loose out of our lives puts us off balance a little bit.
I can;t say i understand why people take that route but its their choice and i wish it was one statistic that would shrink and disappear.