Sunday, September 17, 2006
Sometimes Life Kicks You in the Teeth
It was a lovely wedding. The bride looked gorgeous and the groom shyly proud. The family gathered in the hallway before and after the service, there was a lovely meal and then later there was a disco. The guests were smart and colourful;
Emma in her pretty floaty two piece outfit.
Adam looking tall and grownup in his shirt and trousers.
Justine was an adorable bridesmaid in skyblue with a headpiece of flowers.
Grace was the other bridesmaid in deep gold with golden flowers in her curly hair.
Joanna looked bright as a spring day in her best dress.
Connie looked a cherub in gold.
Jamie and his brother Alexander wore matching shirts and were very handsome.
What did all these people have in common? They are all the children from the family, which we see occasionally.
I love MB's family, and I love the children, but it broke my heart to spend the day/evening with them.
It's not so hard with the Aginoths, although when LMB climbs onto me for a cuddle it does make my heart do a flip, because I see them all the time. Every time I see MB's family there are more children; growing children and new babies. I can't add to the tally of children in the family.
I watched the children play and frolic. I talked with them and teased them. By the end of the evening they were smiling at me and tugging at my arm - just as they tugged at my heart. One of MB's cousins mentioned me 'choosing' not to have children - I didn't go to the trouble of putting her right.
Being unable to have children isn't a sprint in the race of life, it's a never-ending marathon.