Saturday, March 05, 2011

Moving On and Staying Still

It's been four and a bit months since my dad died and I still see him dying last thing at night and first thing in the morning...that image and sound has stayed with me.
I am trying to see him like this - him in his heyday working overseas as a geologist when I was young...
but the recent memories are stronger.
I am so pleased my friend Sarah has scanned in some childhood photos for me and done me fabulous hard copies too.
'Ugly Monster' (my chronic depresssion) has been in resident since before Christmas. It has been my constant companion for the last few months and I have been making a tremendous effort to remember my meds. As a result I have been horrendously run down and have been ill for a month or so. I have missed weeks of work and am physically exhausted now.
But lately someone has lit the candle at the other end of the dark tunnel...
Battle practice has commenced for the new season, which involves advertising Company of Chivalry to the hoi polloi, and the Spring Markets are here, which involves shopping (yay!) and the antici.....pation of our new tent (due to be collected on the 19 March).
I also wetted my medieval appetite with Ironclad. It's a great film about the siege of Rochester Castle in the 13 century with the amazing James Purefoy. Admittedly, they have played fast and loose with costume and 'love interest' but the film was overall entertaining and, mostly, accurate.
More importantly, the Company of Chivalry provided soldiery for the movie and my boys can be seen handling the magnificent trebuchets and fighting in the ensemble scenes. I am so proud!


Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry that things have been so tough for you in recent months. Fighting the ugly monster is an awful battle isn't it?

However, I'm pleased to hear that there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you. Keep your chin up, and hang in there my dear blogsistah.

HUGE {{{hugzzzzzz}}} and much love to you from across the big pond.

Nikki-ann said...

I'm glad to hear of the light in the tunnel for you, as it always seems to be one thing after another when feeling down, doesn't it?

P.S. - Shopping is always good and I love markets! :)

Sleepypete said...

Muahaha - the Crazie Mob as a unit were going "Leave him alone !!!!" every time the Love Interest tried to get her hooks in.

We do worry about you - which is what friends do when we know someone is suffering.

If you feel in need of an escape for coffee + cookie, you know where I am :-)