Saturday, May 20, 2006

Thoughts for a Saturday

1. It's nice to be home (well, that's a no-brainer!)
2. I'm still watching the hippo vblog every few hours - it cracks me up!
3. And - I still watch the Evolution of Dance with a silly grin!

No, seriously.....I have been thinking about my blogroll lately and how each 'person' fits into my life, in a small way or a big way.


My blogroll is such a mishmash of people, topics and life. Bit like my life, really - never settling on one thing for very long, concentration skills of a gnat, no manual skills and dubious social skills.

I feel like I have been hunting for something my whole life. Perhaps my blogroll is my personal Holy Grail.

It includes friends I have had for years (cyberkitten, aginoth, mrs aginoth and sleepypete) without whom I wouldn't be the person I am today. And nestled in there is also, believe it or not, my former boss - who I adore! [waves at bobkat] :-)

It includes people I have never met from Hollywood to the Philippines, Birmingham to British Columbia, even Tanzania [waves at eric]

It reflects every aspect of life from the serious to the extremely crazy. From harsh reality to complete fiction. From deep and meaningful to playful and fun.

It is made up of men and women, all religions, all nationalities and all ages.

I have friends I have made through my blogroll - people I now communicate with by email and people I have grown to admire.

It includes people I have grown to love, even though I have never met them.

I know I will probably never meet any of my blogroll in person, although a trip around the world taking everyone in sounds like a good plan!..... but do I have to? Do I have to meet people in the flesh to be touched by their love, their honesty of expression, their deepest thoughts and their senses of humour?

What kicked off this little monologue? Well, I was so scared in Birmingham, not only in a city (hate cities!), but doing a difficult course that I was worried about. And my blogbuddies kept on visiting, even though they knew I was 'out of touch'. They left messages and in doing so, left an indelible mark on my life. When I struggled with my depression last week, there again were the messages of love and strength. And in showing them to my tutor, I saw everyone through his eyes, and I was touched.
And then there were the 'welcome home' messages. I was so glad to be back in my little house, and there were all these messages bringing me love.

Of course, if anyone has been keeping my schedule up to date [grin], they will know that I have a hospital appointment this week to get some worrying 'growths' looked at.
And my regulars will know that I had major surgery ten years ago for a similar problem and this is scaring me half to death that I may have to go through the whole rigmarole again.

BUT - things are different this time. For the first time in my life, I have an amazing band of close friends on whom I know I can rely (including RCA who will be getting me stonking drunk and filling me up with pizza after the appointment - whatever the results!). And I have this new incredible fellowship of bloggers to support me and help me.

I know I have said this before - but thank you.

cq

20 comments:

Fizzy said...

Blogging is very good for the soul.
Blogging is such a powerful medium and you only know how powerful it is when you have a tough time.

Paste said...

Crazie, nice post and I'm proud to be in your blogroll.

mar said...

Awww, I wish I could say something clever to you and then send you hugs, but don't want to spoil your lovely post so I am only sending you bear hugs ( love the hippo :)

keda said...

aww honey. we are very happy to be here!
thank you. lovely post.
have a great weekend sweeheart.

craziequeen said...

Fizzy - you have become an important part of my life very quickly :-)

Paste - how could I not have your unbounded sense of humour in my blogroll! But you must behave nicely at the next Palace Party!

Mar - my darling Mar...all hugs gratefully received :-)

Keda - what to say to my very own mamahog!?! Thnank you, and hug the 'lets for me, sweetheart.

cq

Sandy J said...

Hi, crazie. Here from Michelle's.

Hang in there! Hope the worries turn out to be nothing to worry about.

And having friends does make the world go around in so many ways and so many levels. I have my family, but NEED my friends.

sophie said...

Here from Michele's. The internet is a wonderful thing. I wish that the news would occasionally focus on the people it has brought together forgood, though I know the predators make a better story.

YellowRose said...

My dear queenie, I wish I could hop over and give you a big ol' hug to help ease away the worries! Everything will be just fine! Trust me, I know everything! ;)

*HUGS!*

I'm so happy to be your blog friend! :)

Pearl said...

Nice to see you over my way, Otherkin.

People who contact online are a treasure. They can reach and be reached anytime day or night, free at any distance. What a blessing.

Becky said...

Here from Micheles! Happy Saturday.

srp said...

The happy, happy hippo is just toooooooo cute for words.
It is always good to be home. Although I do have the door shut to the girl's room as it looks like two atomic bombs and three tornados went through it. Sigh. Tomorrow.
Here from Michele.

aka_monty said...

De-lurking today to send love and happy thoughts in the face of your upcoming appointment. :)

*hug*

And I think one of the nice things about having good blogfriends is that when you DO travel, you'll most likely always find a friendly face. :) I've been lucky enough to meet several of my blogfriends and it only makes me love them more. You're always welcome at the House Of Monty.

(Oh, and thanks for doing the Genuine thingy for me!! You're the best!)

Laura said...

Welcome home Crazie, from wayyy across the ocean.:) I just "met" you a few weeks ago via Michele, but I'm really glad I found your site.
You're so right about blogging,we really get to know each other little by little, post by post. :)

Terri said...

Hi...from Michele's.
Very nice post on the amazing connection of the blogging world. Best of luck on your appointment. Wishing you the best.

Debby said...

A very nice touching sentimental post.

TYVM CQ

Tara said...

Well hon, you know, you've been there for me during the lows (via the blogging of course) but I couldn't wish for a better blogsistah.

If I could have chosen any way to repay you for the kind words you've left me over the months,I would have chosen to do exactly what I'm doing now. Reading your words and offering what little support I can.

Rock on honey, you deserve nothing but the best. I'm proud to call you my friend.

T. said...

Aw, CQ, that's a nice post. I am glad to call you my blogging friend. If you are ever in Canada, let me know. Cause I'd love to knock a few back with you!

Good luck with the appointment.

WendyWings said...

Hugs to you I know you are worried about the appt. Sending lots of good thoughts your way from New Zealand :)

Bob-kat said...

I'm always here :-) We must catch up soon hon!

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