Saturday, May 22, 2010

Earth Wind and Fire

I just took a Facebook quiz...

Am I Earth, Fire or Air?

I am Earth

You are a patient, reliable, and solid person. You tend to be a strong influence and stabilizing force in people's lives. While you are quite serious, you are thoughtful in all ways. You tend to be a big dreamer, and you can be very laid back. You prefer to observe and stay in the shadows. You don't crave the limelight. You only seek your own approval. While you don't like to show off, you should let yourself be the center of attention every now and than. You have what it takes to shine.


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Curl Up and Cry

Some weeks you just want to curl up and die......

This has been my first full week on my new eating kick and I yearn for some serious chocolate. I have got some chocolate 'drizzle' on my cereal bars - but oh how I long to drown myself in a big old bar of Dairy Milk or indulge in some salty snacks. I am struggling to eat three times a day and only at those times to stop myself snacking out - one of my vices. But I must cleanse my diet and purge the junk.
Managing food so strictly is resulting in a severe depression, which is making me crave junk food all the more. But I must be strong.
I am keeping my diary daily and a woman friend at work is supporting me and has agreed to check my food diary a couple of times a week. Included in my diary is 'Crimes and Misdemeanours' (slipping into bad habits) and 'Good stuff' (walking, cycling etc).
No C&M as yet - lots of walking recorded this week.

MB is going in for an angiogram tomorrow to find out the cause of long term chest pain making this week definitely a test of stress levels.....While I know it's a good thing he is having the test and will ensure he is properly cared for - it's a Big Deal. We both know people who have survived heart problems, but then we have both known people who haven't.
Sometimes when I think of the bad stuff, I just want to curl up and cry. We've been together 24 years now and I am terrified to consider life without him. He is scared and worried and home life is tense. So I am being strong, trying to think positive and desperate not to let the ghosts get to us.

Update - the angiogram was all clear, so no problems with MB's heart or arteries. But he does still have high cholesterol and some circulation problems but nothing too serious. Just the chest pain to sort out now - but the optimism levels have lifted in our house......


Sunday, May 09, 2010


Diets are a curse, but sometimes you do have to look critically at what you eat and change your lifestyle.
I have long standing eating issues that date back 12 years or more, and they have been brought into sharp focus since I gave up smoking a few years back. My problems are so bad only my doctor knows how much I weigh and he is not allowed to tell me.
I am a strict vegetarian and fickle with it. I hate yoghurt, loathe brown bread and reject wholewheat pasta and brown rice. I hate eating nuts and pulses in food and some vegetables should just be banned. I struggle to eat at work and can't do breakfast at silly o'clock. On the other side of the coin, I eat junk food at night.
So, just how does someone as fussy as me diet?
First of all, train my stomach to accept food at work, somewhere I definitely do not eat. I have to start small....
Breakfast - a pack of BelVita breakfast biscuits and a glass of fruit juice.
Lunch - cereal bar and fruit juice
Dinner - same as before, but smaller portions, less fat and not followed by chocolate!
Weekend lunch - more robust, but rules apply.
Rules - no chocolate (except that teensy drizzle allowed on cereal bars!), no snack foods (crisps etc) and 30 minutes walking at least three times a week.
It's been almost week now....Wish me luck...

Thursday, May 06, 2010


I have exercised my democratic right to vote - and have put my X in the box.
Here's hoping for a hung parliament........


Sunday, May 02, 2010

Wednesday's Child

Monday's child is fair of face,
Tuesday's child is full of grace,
Wednesday's child is full of woe,
Thursday's child has far to go,
Friday's child is loving and giving,
Saturday's child works hard for his living,
And the child that is born on the Sabbath day
Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay.

I was born on Wednesday - just (01.10am) - and this is spookily accurate!

So what day were you born and how accurate is this tarradiddle?
If you don't know, there's websites that can tell you what day you were born: